The Prayer Room, Part 2

We ended our meeting with a professional hand shake. I said my “thank you and good-bye” to the Senior Editor for a well-known Christian book publisher and exited the room, making way for her next appointment to enter. With her business card in hand, it hit me. She expressed interest in reviewing my completed book proposal AND gave me her card. To be perfectly honest with you, I didn’t know what to do with that. I should have been elated. Instead I was numb.

I’d had 3 meetings that day, 2 of which I was convinced I wanted to cancel. And now someone may be interested. Interesting

Through the strength of Christ, I’ve found legs to stand under layers of disappointment I’ve faced in recent years. Today, the reality that I’ve misplaced my sensitivity to the excitement and whimsical pleasure of possibility gripped me as I left the editor’s presence. At first I didn’t know where to go – back to my hotel suite or to slip quietly into the rear of the room to catch the end of the session I’d missed. The navigation system of my stylish black heels had someplace else in mind.

When I crossed the threshold of the prayer room, I almost froze. There were two women praying together, and I felt like any move I made would disrupt the precious atmosphere. I silently slipped into a chair and began to reflect. Moments later a woman from the prayer team joined me. My private nature almost told her I just wanted to be left alone in silence. Instead I shared my immediate thoughts and allowed her to pray for me.

After prayer, the sweet woman (whose name escapes me now) directed me to the tables in the back to find my name attached to a name of God. I rounded the table carefully scanning 650 names looking for my own. I was eager to find out to what name His Spirit led them to affix my name. My heart began to pound as I neared the end and had yet run across Monica Watkins.

As I turned to walk away, the enemy of my existence began his choral response in my head. He put on a grand performance, singing negative tunes insinuating I’d been forgotten, gone unnoticed, was unimportant, flown under the radar or fallen through the cracks undetected once again. He begged me to agree with him that I shouldn’t have been there, at the conference, meeting with publishers, or pitching a book.

“You haven’t arrived,” he taunted. “The epicenter o f destiny is all in your head.”

The woman who prayed for me was watching the entire time. She whispered to me, “Did you find it?” When I told her no, she immediately jumped up to help me look. She took one side of the table, and I took the other. In no time she bid me come.

There I was (last vertical slip at the top of the page):

Attached to Jehovah, the great I AM!

The words written below the name are:

 “I Am”: The one who is the self-existent One

God never changes. His promises never fail. When we are faithless, He is faithful. We need to obey Him.

Exodus 3:14, Exodus 6:2-4, Exodus 34:5-7, Psalm 102

If you’re looking for a place to spend your devotion time today, the verses above may be a nice place to start. They have been for me. Later on, I’ll share which verses stood out most and how I am finding peace in these passages.

Completely ME,


The Prayer Room, Part 1 – More Thoughts from She Speaks

Imagine the variety of experiences that may be available to you over the course of roughly 67 hours, in an environment of 650 women representing 40+ states and (I think) 4 countries. A superabundance of experiences can spring forth out of such fertile ground. This was the ground I walked on at the She Speaks Conference last weekend.

Take note – especially any writers, speakers, and/or women’s ministry leaders out there – as I continue to express the richness of this experience. It was a wealth weightier than normal networking and padded the scale more on the side of encouragement than of competition.

One of my notable experiences was my time in the She Speaks Conference Prayer Room. The Prayer Room was a place of calm in the midst of the clamor, set aside for a purpose I believe is pretty self-explanatory (given the name). It was a serene place of comfortable seating, dim lighting, soothing instrumental worship music, and oh yeah, lots of tissue boxes. After all this was a women’s event. 🙂

There were no “hours of operation” for the prayer room, at least none that I was ever aware of. If the conference was in session, the prayer room was open. Women would drop in between or even during sessions, whenever they felt the need to steal away for a sweet hour (or maybe just a few minutes) of prayer.

The most unique aspects of the prayer room, aside from the atmosphere, were the names of God on display on tables at the back of the room. Get this! Prior to the conference the Proverbs 31 Ministries team took the time to pair the name of each one of the 650 attendees to one of 19 names of God. A sampling of the names of God included names like: El – meaning: The Strong One, Jehovah Nissi – meaning: The Lord is My Banner, Immanuel – meaning: God with us, and El Shaddai – meaning: the all sufficient one; the God of the mountains; God almighty

The team prayed over all 650 women in the days leading up to the conference. Now is that a beautiful thing or what?! Indeed it is.

Join me tomorrow as I share more of my experience in the prayer room and the funny now (yet not so funny then) story of how and where I found my name.

In the meantime, is there a request you’d like me to take into my personal prayer room for you? I’d be delighted to call on the One who is the strong One, who is our banner, who is the all sufficient One – God almighty – on your behalf. Feel free to leave your prayer requests in the comments, and I’ll see you back here tomorrow.

Completely ME,

Operation “She Speaks” is On

Hey ladies! I won’t keep you long today, but I just wanted to stop in to say “hi”. I am just a bundle of excitement right about now. Almost 3 hours ago I arrived for the conference I’ve wanted to attend for seven years now. I know you all have probably wearied over the past few years as I “bent your ears” about wanting to attend this conference. You all remember my many attempts to win scholarships. Apparently, it just wasn’t my time. This year, God said “yes”, and I am very happy to be here.

For much of the afternoon, I’ve been relaxing, trying to shake off the staleness of a rental car and a long, hot busy interstate drive. I’ve, also, been hanging out chit chatting with my roommate for the conference. She is a beautiful young woman who hails from Brazil and now lives in Canada. She is nervous about her accent and her mastery of the English language, but I’ve already told her she’s doing just fine. Her accent is a delight to listen to, and she speaks English better than many of us who were born and raised in the states! Seriously… I’ll see if I can get her to smile for the camera later. 🙂

North Carolina brings back all sorts of memories. To be honest, most of them are not so great. I lived here for just under 6 months, many moons ago, during one of the most challenging seasons of my life. That’s totally another story for another day, though.

Today, it’s all about the craft of writing and how the Lord wants me to use the gift He’s given me. I’ve already learned so much just preparing for this conference, so I can only imagine what’s in store in the days ahead. I’m excited to find out, though, and I’ll try my best to keep you posted. My day gets going late tomorrow, but once it starts it will be non-stop. If I can steal a few moments, I will try to stop by and say “hi” tomorrow, too!

If you’re joining me from Facebook or Twitter, happy almost Friday. If you’re catching up with me via email, Happy Friday (you won’t see this until then)!

Completely ME,

She’s Going to She Speaks

A solid 10 days have passed since I completed my first Blog Challenge, and as you can see it wore me out!  I probably could have kept going, but it has been good to take some time to sit back and reflect on where I want to go from here.  Today, I decided I’d better just dive back in and at least say hi to my friends (that would be you all) before you begin to think I’m still down for the count.  Plus, I have some exciting news to share, but that will come in a minute.

I’ve been playing catch up these past few days, but my schedule hasn’t calmed down much.  In between working full weeks, I’ve traveled back and forth to my hometown two weekends in a row.  Although the drive is a short one, it feels long after working all week.  The thought alone of driving there and driving back makes my eyelids droop with weariness.  However, I must admit both trips brought their own measure of joy that was truly worth the lack of extra rest.

In the midst of it all I’m still working on my blog makeover.  The ball is in my court now, and I’m committed to tossing it back this week (preferably before this day is over).  I can’t wait until it’s all complete and ready for you to see.  I feel like I’m moving into a new home, and many of my quiet thoughts have been directed towards how I want to “decorate” my new place.  You see, I consider the layout and these posts as pictures and mirrors for the walls – the things that decorate a home and the things that reflect the style and heart of the homeowner.  I’m very excited about moving into my new place and having you all over for tea sometime. 😉

Speaking of my new place brings me to the exciting news I promised to share.  The beautiful daughter of God – Lisa Boyd – who is spear-heading this blog transformation (thanks to a blog contest that I won and the favor of the Lord that allowed me to win) is affiliated with Proverbs 31 Ministries.  I am hoping I will get to tell her thank you in person in July when I FINALLY, yes FINALLY, land my little self at my first Proverbs 31 Ministries She Speaks Conference.

Many of you have so graciously listened to my incessant chatter about my desire to attend this conference for Speakers, Writers, and Women’s Ministry Leaders.  I know at least some of you remember me chatting right here on the blog about my multiple contest entries, both last year and this year.  I was serious, y’all!   I’m here to tell you Galatians 6:9 is God’s word, so it can’t fall under any other heading but truth! 🙂

“Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary.

This year, girlfriends, it’s on!!

I learned about Proverbs 31 Ministries back in 2004, just as I was about to move 4 ADDITIONAL hours away from the city that hosts the conference each year.  Needless to say I didn’t attend that year or the years that followed.  As a matter of fact, one year after another passed by, and for one reason or another I was unable to attend.  Until now….  Thanks to a payment plan, a scholarship program, some wonderful donations from some wonderful people, and the amazing grace of God, I am ecstatic to share that I will be attending this year’s She Speaks Conference.

Persistence certainly pays, but let’s be honest.  God’s timing is more valuable and always perfect.  I sure hope you allow those last two sentences to sit with you for a bit.  I believe they are meant to bless you in some way today. 🙂

Until next time…

Wise, Virtuous, Valuable,

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